current earworm:

I finally did it!!! drove home solo at night from Xianrong’s place! I’ve always feared driving at night because of visibility issues. but I took the plunge and I’m really glad I did — had to do it sooner or later anyway. it wasn’t easy overcoming the fear though, kept putting off leaving every fifteen minutes. so yes. +1 to life achievements!!!

this weekend was a weekend of tiny victories. I was very bummed about having to do work, again I also put it off — was meant to do it on Saturday afternoon but didn’t. thankfully I managed to finish it today. yeah, finishing it rather satisfactorily is pretty victorious imo haha got to enjoy my evening! seems like I work best when there’s some time pressure, ha.

speaking of procrastination, I’ve been postponing my CFA study plans. I was meant to begin in the first weekend of Feb, but I still haven’t done anything. I know I will regret this in time to come. I should really do this coming weekend, though it’s going to be a little tough since I’ve got plans, but hahaha ok no more excuses. anyway even if I don’t complete all I’ve tasked myself to, some progress is better than none!

what happened the past week:

  • got xr hooked on jamie xx’s remix of take care
  • Lin flew to Germany 😥 I felt so worried and sad before she left! but now I’m cool haha. so envious tbh, yes I’ve had my time, still…
  • received swimwear in the mail!!! kekeke
  • signed a package with a new studio, Yoga Lab! it’s at Duxton which is terrific — I’ll pass Hattendo otw from work LOL pre-workout snack how bou dah? *u* they’ve got a studio in the east as well, apparently it’s super nice cannot wait to checkit teehee
  • finally wore my new shades out FINALLY ah I love it sooo muuuch
  • parallel parked at frkn turf city without too much hassle — AW YISS. MAKIN’ SUMMA DAT LIFE PROGRESS

aite peace have a great week ahead everyone!

felt temporarily at peace and hopeful thru putting aside responsibilities, ha. definitely not a sustainable way to live…will have to figure some way out of feeling trapped. the day I dread Monday has finally come. not sure if it’s a sign for me to change my environment or work on my attitude/mindset? a fair bit of reflection to be had…

anyway. this article (every successful relationship is successful for the same exact reasons) is well-written and is something I would refer to in future, don’t want to forget it so I’m cataloguing it here

 

I’m trying to stick to my resolution to write more so here I am. without anything to write about. so I’m going to do a simple recount/log about what’s been going on in my life!

let’s start with the weekend…

Friday was an off day! Xianrong and I spent half the day making pineapple tarts, like we did last year ^_^ they were pretty good even if I say so myself…though big flaw was in the poor jam:pastry ratio. too little jam, too much cookie, so it wasn’t that shiok. we might be making a second batch this Friday so we’ll try to perfect it!!! we were supposed to make two batches then but got lazy. used Bake for Happy Kids’ pineapple jam recipe as a guide — I didn’t add that much sugar, simply tasted and went along — and followed the Sweet Spot’s pastry recipe to a T. spent 3-4 hours making the jam, stirring and watching it reduce, and another 4 making the tarts. mixing and kneading the pastry, measuring the pastry needed for each tart (we used 12g) and shaping them took up so much time. it wasn’t difficult, just repetitive and tiring. got quite unmotivated barely after getting into it so we decided to leave the second batch for another day

Saturday was Laneway/Rainway/Lameway. spent it in a poncho (Daiso $2 good quality would recommend). smuggled Koi in. with siblings and our plus ones. saw Claire, Qianhui and Jan there. it was also nice people-watching. crowd was rather young?! plenty of real young people like 14-15 y/os. had baos from Full of Luck Club. caught a bit of NAO’s set — that was fun and cute. headed to Poptart after, haha, fun initially, got a cocktail from the Reyka stand, Nordic Summer something I think, that was good, then left when they started playing songs we weren’t feeling. some Lizard Blizzard duno what band — did not enjoy. Bob Moses’ full set — another fun one, great intro, thanks Laneway/XR. Tycho’s full set — atmospheric rock filled the air during the brief respite from the rain. we laid on our ponchos laid on our tapestry laid on our ground sheet. thoroughly enjoyed that set, music was chill and very enjoyable, and the environment and general mood definitely added to it. a bit of the Tourist’s set — he’s good, will check out more of his stuff, thanks Laneway. Glass Animals’ full set — SO fun. what a surprise. XR and I were very disappointed when we saw them in Berlin, Lollapalooza 2015, god I miss Berlin so much, and Europe. life in Nottingham. back to Glass Animals in Berlin — yeah I think they weren’t very experienced then. must have played quite a few shows now, and perhaps the new album’s more fun to play/appreciate live. had a blast at their set. Nick Murphy (Chet Faker)’s set — thought it was alright. not familiar with Nick Murphy’s stuff, and his renditions of Chet Faker stuff were definitely different…maybe darker? wish I had seen him before he ‘rebranded’ as Nick Murphy 😥

wow ok that Laneway recap turned out long. what else happened…hmm. Sunday was spent at home. oh, lunch at Le Wu. horrible experience. food was meh, waited forever, girl who served us had a terrible year or something, what a pity. could have been a nice nostalgic meal. a swim school opened next to Le Wu and they placed a little step for passers-by to take a peek, appreciated that, got to peek at little bbs learning to swim!!! they were less than one I think?! really cute. but some seemed to really struggle…they would try to ‘swim’ for two seconds or so and when they emerged they would cough and squint, and their eyes were red…aiyo. after lunch I lazed at home, then went over to XR’s for reunion steamboat. that’s always nice. meals at his place never disappoint

then it’s time for Monday…

what happened Monday? ah I met Jess for the first time HA we met online when we were 12 via Blogskins…lermao. had lunch at Black Swan, which XR joined too. they met Muay Thai — they went to the same gym, like wOt?!? small world. so yeah now we are all acquainted! funny. then after work I had Mookata for the first time ever! at East Coast Road with Claire. then I went to get my hair cut at Roxy Square. proud of myself for walking through Roxy Square at 7.50pm when most shops were closed. Roxy Square is an extremely old mall, it’s like heartland Far East Plaza but way less spacious, with lots of shops with creepy mannequins. eugh *shudder*. ok I’m a pussy, I get creeped out easily, so there. anyway I’m glad I got my haircut!

Tuesday I played touch! brought Ann to this social touch group that plays at Kallang regularly. considering doing this regularly. cheap and I get to have a good run — woooop! then we got our disgusting muddy selves to Thomson for supper (after heckuva lot of deliberation, should we really…, maybe we should have fruits?, ugh but I’m gonna be hungry after for sure, ok let’s go, ah fuck let’s not I don’t feel like it, ugggh but later…, ok let’s do this, ok I’m just going to have something light will dim sum still be open?, *gets hargow*, get bcm anyway)

and here I am today.

in other news:

  • I’m almost done with the first book (fiction!) I’m reading in ages. like years. maybe even a decade. honest to God. I stopped reading fiction when I turned twelve or something. this one’s called Girl Meets Boy by Ali Smith. it’s pretty easy to read. simple language. characters are Scottish. references to Scottish/English culture were particularly enjoyable because I could relate. it’s quite modern too. so yes very relatable
  • attending a free lunch tomorrow keke job perx yippee
  • cannot wait for steamboat again on Friday will be making a chilli padi dip that Claire and I made in Notts for our steamboat god I miss my homies
  • I’ll be spending Saturday–Sunday in Malaysia
  • I will have no life after CNY because I will have to study but I would also really like to still make time for this. it’s therapeutic!

The xx’s new album. less intense, less moody; more eclectic and multi-layered

Listen on Spotify
Pitchfork review

personal favourites:

on hold – looped it to death when they released it as a single, unfortunately a teeny bit sick of it… it still gives me amazing vibes though
lips – has some of the moodiness characteristic of their previous album, Coexist
performance – like lips
replica

thoughts after the cut. I’m no music critic, so pardon me if I don’t describe musical things accurately…

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as I stepped out of the office building into the sticky humid air, I smelled the sea. 8 marina view. less than a mile away from the sea. the central business district—probably where you’d find the densest population on weekdays—is right by the sea 

this realisation made me feel immensely grateful for the privilege of calling this tiny island home, where it’s impossible to feel trapped by swaths of land. which is a good thought, a thought that grounds me to this country I dream of escaping from every day 

at work I listened to spotify’s mellow mood playlist (really good, love it so much—probably because there wasn’t much I was unfamiliar with. creature of habit). many tracks brought me back to my time in England and my travels, and those memories were beautiful. for now I’m happy to just hold on to and relish in the occasional trip back brought by familiar sounds, scents and photographs 

entering a new year is always exciting and filled with hope because we feel like we can start afresh, on a clean slate. over the weekend I felt optimistic about making this year a great one. I had a beautiful end to 2016. spent the second last day doing things young people do. being happy and free. and the last day with family. I enjoyed myself immensely. in the day we went shopping for ingredients. then we cooked and went over to the new place, each of us (me & siblings & plus ones) made a dish. XR & I made a stewy chickpea thing (omitted capers because I forgot, replaced feta bc I’m not a fan with fresh mozza, mmmmmhm) and brought cheeses and some cold meats (rosette de Lyon & salchichon de iberico bellota. the spanish one [salchichon] was so beautiful I could cry). lin & colin made amazing steaks and garlic bread. yu & jason made mushrooms and sweet potatoes which were so sweet. I asked if they added honey – yeah, that sweet

this year I really hope I stick to my intention of writing at least once a week. by writing I mean penning down my thoughts somewhere. this intention is heavily inspired by quora users responding to ‘how do I improve my life’ ‘what are some habits I can cultivate to become successful’ so I will attempt to make a habit out of it. it’s something I’ve always enjoyed but I never followed through because of laziness and the fear of being lousy. I do enjoy writing so I think I should keep at it regardless of how shitty I think I am. I think many times we prevent ourselves from trying or doing things because we don’t have the courage to face our inadequacy. we avoid trying so we won’t fail. but when we don’t try we would already have failed…massively… this for me is an opportunity for growth

the big theme for me in 2017 is to grow. this means having to abandon fear and be okay with trying new things even if I’m not confident in my ability to excel. not wait for opportunities to come by – create them. be proactive

back to writing, I write with the hope of:

  1. improving my written communication skills
  2. strengthening my ability to construct arguments
  3. bringing some discipline into my life
  4. being more creative
  5. being more thoughtful, reflective and engaged with my inner self
  6. preventing myself from leading an unbloggable life. that’s not to say that I live with the intention of blogging. I feel like having to write about how I spend my time makes me more accountable to how I actually spend my time. it’s too easy for days to bleed into each other when things get busy. it’s easy to get lazy and I’m not ready to slip into that!!!

I mean for this space to be a place for my reflection and consolidation of thoughts, as well as the sharing of experiences and ideas. I would love for this to someday facilitate two-way sharing but for now I will focus on just writing…

2017 will be the year I cultivate new habits and routines

  1. read more – both fiction and non-fiction. especially non-fiction. I have started on ‘boy meets girl’ by ali smith
  2. read less – social media feeds. it has become a nasty habit. I can’t help trying to keep up out of boredom, and I am addicted to the instant gratification of getting hit with fresh information and updates. ‘command + t’, entering ‘fa’ in the browser bar then hitting ‘enter’ has become a reflex when I lose interest in what I was originally engaged with.
  3. write at least once a week – about anything. share what I’ve learned. log my days, especially precious ones, so they don’t just disappear
  4. restrict bubble tea intake to once a week
  5. swim at least once a week

post ideas:

  1. my reading list
  2. lessons from job-searching journey (year 3 – just slightly after graduation)
  3. lessons from first 3 months in my first job
  4. trying to eat healthy in the CBD
  5. trying to be fit with unpredictable work hours
  6. struggles from returning to real life from a 4-year long holiday
  7. the feeling of displacement

a lot of the above I could have and should have penned down when the inspiration hit me, when the emotions were most raw and at their strongest, but I didn’t because I felt like I didn’t have a platform … or something … I don’t know. I make so many excuses. I think ultimately our failures are 99% attributable to laziness lel

ok ciao that’s all for a first post of 2017. I think i made good effort and I am happy